Missing my goal this narrowly was something I was dreading the possibility of. And it happened. I'm not a fan of failure.
I think the worst part about missing this goal is that I knew I could do it, and I was soooo excited for that. I had made my own training plan and was rocking it pretty consistently.
Then, the weather forecast came out, and the start time got bumped up. Major heat predicted. And I couldn't beat it.
|Yay for non-flattering post-race pictures!|
I should have brought my own water. When I panicked and got shaky in the last two miles, I think water would have helped calm me down and cool me off a little. In the past, I haven't wanted to carry it, but this, I think, would have been a goal-saver.
I also should not have put so much into the time. I PR'ed, and that's awesome. I needed a reality check when I saw the e-mail about the heat warning. Instead, I scoffed at it and assumed I was better.
As far as running goes, I have been quite successful as far as the goals I have set for myself. This has given me a lot of confidence, but I am trying to change my perspective and learn that missing a goal can make me even better. So, I'm going to take a little break before my next half, but here are the things I'm going to make sure to keep in mind:
- Nobody's perfect.
- I ran over 13 miles. There are an awful lot of people who can't say the same.
- Don't force yourself to run. Now that I am not training, I would like to keep my mileage above 10 a week. However, I'm not going to force myself to run. There are a lot of other workouts I have been looking forward to trying, but haven't had the time. I will run when, and because, I want to.
- Don't let anything make you not love running. (How's that for a double negative?) I am making sure to get back to running with buddies and not worrying about distance or time. This has been huge for me in disappointment-ville.
With a little break and a fresh perspective, I will meet my half goal. Maybe it won't be at my next race, and I'm *trying* to be OK with that. Racing is fun, and I don't want to lose that feeling.
Have you ever missed a big goal when you knew you could do it?
Any advice for moving on?